I decided to do this section only because I wanted people to have a real insight of my life. I don't want people to be masked by the glitz and glamor that is portrayed. I believe in the truth and I want the world to see it. I also know that maybe someone can be able to relate to this.
When people look at my world they envision beauty, happiness, perfection, but in reality the world I live in was definitely in no comparison. I spent endless days in tears at a point of time, I ve spent weeks with the curse of no food, I ve spent months with a an empty bank account so low that it may have been shut down for the lowest funds in America. Growing up was painful. There were days I went with out food, times my phone was shut off, times when I couldn't pay the bills and times when I didn't even have a penny to my name.I ve worked every dead end job from Mcdy's to retail stores. I ve had it all.
But through it all I never let it changed me, I never became bitter from it. I never let it define who I am. I never let describe who I will become. I never held it against anyone. I didn't sell my body to get what I needed. I worked late shifts at Mcdys if I had to just to make ends meet. Yea I could off shaked it at the strip club but I settled for an honest living only because I know that one day things would get better. I never asked anyone for anything, I never received help from anyone I did it all by myself.
I moved to NY on my own, I didn't know the city from left to right, didn't know who to trust. But I did it. Every picture I took was taken by me, I didn't have a personal photographer, I didn't have personal assistant. Every thing designed was designed by me, I went out to get my own camera, my own laptop, my own video camera to make myself who I am. I did it all on my own. I didn't receive any gifts or endorsements everything came from hard working money. It was days I would starve just to save up for a camera or a laptop. But I didn't become upset that I had to do it twice as harder I just knew how important my dream meant to me. I did it all on my own, everything that is seen, was done all by me.
So before you judge, criticize, ridicule, or feel a bit of envious know my struggles that has been sewed into me to become what you are seeing now. And to anyone whose faced any similar struggles don't give up on whats important to you whether you want to be a rapper, or judge, know whats important to you, and know that there is always someone out there that has it worse than you. If I can do it, than you can too. Let me be the example and follow your heart and don't ever let the struggle become you.
Karisma
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